Finding Purpose in Defeat

Finding Purpose in Defeat

Feelings of uncertainty, depression, loss of control and even helplessness. Im sure we've all felt that at some point in our lives. Even after giving what felt to be your best, situations still don't turn out quiet the way you envisioned them. After constantly praying to Yah and believing there was no answer, you begin to feel at your lowest point. This is where I was before I really began to honestly change my life around and thats where I begin to see the Yah move.


After two and a half years post graduation with my bachelors degree in Public Relations I was discouraged. Working a job that I had during college feeling like I could have saved myself the trouble and just worked here instead of accumulating the debt. Seeing the same old things in my home town, knowing everyone around me had what they felt to be a great life, meanwhile I know there was more to the world than simply parlaying at the neighborhood spots. I begin to grow weary, angry and depressed trying to find the answer I was looking for from Yah.


It seemed He either wasn't listening or was just choosing to ignore me and I had no clue why, at least I thought I didn't. During this time is where I really begin to hold myself accountable for my life and really focus in on finding what Yah wanted from me. I stopped indulging in self medicating to ignore the issues and began reading my bible, fasting and praying regularly. As I released a lot of my anger and hurt I begin hearing prompts of what to do with my life.


Out of nowhere a friend, whom I hadn't spoken to in quite some time, posted about a great opportunity they landed in a city I kept thinking of. I knew this was Yah leading me to my next step in life. After speaking with them I landed an interview and later the job, only to be faced with a huge I or do I not pick up and move across the country to a state and city I've never been to? Just like before, not being sure, I began another fast and thats when I received the answer to move. 


I can honestly now say after about two years I couldn't be any happier that I decided to let go of the feelings of defeat and hold to the promise of Yah as I walked a brand new path towards what has unfolded to be a great blessing! Since moving I began a job with a great company and have even started this brand to help encourage others, as well as remind myself to walk by faith. I'll leave you with a very important scripture that kept my mind grounded as I began to walk by faith. I pray this blesses you in the same manner it blessed me and please remember that everything in life works in #DivineTiming 


"25 Because of this I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you shall eat or drink, or about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than the food and the body more than the clothing? 26 Look at the birds of heaven, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into storehouses, yet your heavenly Father does feed them. Are you not worth more than they?" Matthew 6:25-26

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